It's ironic. I start a blog at 12:30am on a night before one of my final exams for the class I need to be studying for the most. My inability to focus has been something that I've struggled with this entire semester, often resorting to researching about possible Grad schools or looking for potential jobs when I graduate. Why do I do this when to get there... to get that job or get into the Grad school I would die to get into, I need the grades. Sure, I've overcome my obstacles from first year, fighting off that C- GPA to get me to that A-, but I can't figure out why the switch in my brain to focus and continue on this path just isn't turning on. I feel awful for not being as dedicated to studying as others, for putting my social life on hold due to last minute cramming, and all-nighters... but I just can't wrap my head around why I do this to myself all the time. And now I'm focusing on this question when I should be focusing on this exam. What a vicious circle of distraction and lack of focus. All I want to do is pull through this and make it out proud on the other side... but that drive isn't there. What's wrong with me?...
Well, hello blogging world... I'm not sure if you're ready for the random rants and thoughts that pop into my head...
